So, I hate to be the reminder of bad news, but the last two weeks have been really hard in general for us as a little family. And I feel that it's only right that I talk a little bit about what's been going on.
Sadly, probably the 2 nicest people I know passed away in the last two weeks. Uche, the most funny, joyful, energetic, electric girl every will always have a huge place in my heart. From that first cheer routine we learned for tryouts, I couldn't have asked for a greater friend. With all the good times that we would have as a group, Uche was always at the center of all the fun. It was sad to see her leave after sophomore year, but I knew it was the best for her and it was good to see her happier and less stressed. I only wished we had stayed in touch over those next two years, but I can honestly say we were pretty lucky to see her at that last Lowell Dance. At first, I hadn't remembered and I just felt so sad that I didn't get to say one last goodbye, but after looking through Linda's pictures, the memories rushed back of that great hug.
And then there is Nelson. What a sweet and always-cheerful person. I know that Jenny, Connie, and Linda were really close to him and that's how I met him...i think. He was immediately open and so nice to a person he barely knew. All I know is that every time I passed Nelson in the halls, we always met with happy hellos and smiles. As an active runner and part of some of the biggest groups of friends at Lowell, it was hard NOT to know Nelson and hear all the great things about him. It seems like everyone I know was friends with him. Over the 4 years I would know him, I would always see Jenny giving him big hugs and Sol acting like they were brother and sister. As I looked through Nelson's facebook pictures, it was really nice to see happy smiling pictures of Nelson and Jenny hugging at Senior Picnic, Nelson and Connie at Senior Prom, and Nelson and Linda at graduation. Even though I didn't know him as well as some of us did, it's obvious how much he is loved and how much everyone cares for him.
These two weeks of tears, recovery, and more tears has really made me realize how easy it is to take the ones you love for granted. Uche's now famous quote:) makes me feel ok about asking for help, that I am not week because I ask for help. And all the love shown for Nelson has shown me how much love not only is in our Lowell community, but with us.
As I talked to each of you today, I was sad for Nelson's family and felt sad in general that we lost such a wonderful person, but as I cried, all I could do was think about how much I love you all and how devastated I would be if anything ever happened. All I could cry about was how soooo many people are hurting, so much hurt, and there is nothing I can do to help. Nothing I say is going to make things better, and it was heartbreaking to know that the ones I love sooo much were going through so much pain. I hope you all know that just because we are far away from each other, I still love you all so much, and our friends' passing shouldn't be what brings us together. I think I have learned my lesson on how fragile life is and how we should really live it to its fullest, and stay in touch with the ones we care about. Now, I'm not going to stop stressing about school and stuff like that, but it's really important to think of our friends that we cared for so much and learn from them. That's what they would have wanted, I can feel it:)
On a happier note, Here are some awesome pictures that will remind us of all the happy times, and even though they are not still here, they're still with us, and thats pretty nice to know! They will always be wherever we are:)
I'm sorry if this made anyone feel bad, but I just wanted all of you to know what I've been thinking about for the last few weeks, and ....you all are the best<3
Love, Hannah
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